I Wish It Will Happen But It Wouldn't

There is a job that I am trying to get for the summer which would be a really amazing opportunity for me. There are so many other individuals that would really great at this besides me they most likely know people that have an influence, have a better GPA, go to a more prestigious school, and several other things. When I talk about this to people I act like I have no doubts that they will hire me and give me the chance to prove myself, but secretly I am thinking that there is almost no chance of me getting it. I would love to but it just would not happen I filled something out wrong I forgot something or some of minimal thing that does not make me able to do it. Some of my friends say "You do understand that there are people from all over the country applying for this right? There are some kids that go to MIT, Harvard, Yale, and other IV league schools and know people that are in control of this. They did more volunteering, more leadership positions, and other things to prepare for this." I respond "That is true but what real world experience do they have? Have they had an internship for the third largest health network in the nation and have worked for everything that they have received? What makes them better than me a better GPA?" Think about it if they have a great GPA then they are very smart I am not denying that but do they have common sense? I just want to know that for once in my life I am able to get it.

Why can't we ever be on the same page?

Right off the bat it is very easy to write whatever I want on here because I know no one will ever read it so it makes things simpler. I have a main problem of not just getting away from people. It's not because I don't want to be around you it is because when I am around you that is all I want to do just hang out with you. I realize that it is as simple as it might look but it could work. What is it about me that does not work? What am I not doing right? I really wish that if I do something that makes you mad or annoys you that you would say something and not just let it go.