Look at this photograph

Pictures are a way of escaping our current situation. Remembering those memories of times gone by. They can take us to beautiful, relaxing, ugly, and stressful times. Sometimes we just have to stop what we are doing and pay attention to what is going on around us. If we don't have time to stop at take a picture then obviously our lives are too busy and we need to slow down or else we will miss the beauty of the world.

A Shopping Adventure

Everyone loves going shopping if its for clothes, cars, video games, jobs, friends, or other things. Almost anything can be bought if you have a high enough limit on your credit card. One of the few commodities we can't purchase would be friendship. We might be able to buy it with the lies we tell but sooner or later they will catch up to you. It's the snowball effect you have to keep telling more lies to cover up another lie. There is no way out of the visous circle once you start unless you fess up and tell the truth. The truth can be a dangerous thing if you try to cover it up, you might be trying to hide it because you think it's nasty, ugly, and will make people stop being your friends. Eventually they will find out either from you telling them or your actions that say it for you.

I Have Been Changed For The Good

There have been some recent things that have truly stuck with me and makes me appreciate what I have. I volunteer at a hospital and when there are kids that are lying in the Intensive Care Unit with burns all over their body, coming into dialysis everyday like routine, and many other things. These types of things make you wonder how they are able to still have a smile on their face and are happy to see and meet new people. Seeing these things you understand why everyone from the janitors to doctors go to work everyday, they are able to help the people get better and live a normal life.

Trapped

It never fails after a little bit of time I always get trapped into some sort of commitment that I can't seem to get out of. Now it really boils down to the job part because if I say no then I'm letting someone down but if I say yes to everyone then I let someone else down.

What Should I Do?

Dear Friend,

I realize I haven't written to you in awhile several things have been eating away at me. These things I have tried to bring to your attention before although they didn't seem to stick. My major pet peeve is people that don't feel as though they have zero self confidence/respect. The major reason this bothers me is because with all of my friends I have respect for you so when you act as though you don't respect yourself it's very difficult to keep respect for you. How can I respect you if you don't respect yourself? I realize I do blow somethings out of proportion and can get carried away with that but if you don't want that to happen you shouldn't tell me those things not that I don't care but because I do. I have told you before not to talk about some of those things with me but you continue to do it.

There are some other things that I would like to bring to your attention. I realize that you like to talk a lot but sometimes it can be overwhelming when I come to talk to you about something that is bothering me and you talk nonstop aout different things. Continuing, with that if I bring a problem of mine to your attention and you think I should discuss it with another person that would have more experience with that. It would be better if I was able to make the decision to discuss it with that individual on my own instead of you arranging it. I realize you are trying to help but forcing me to talk with a person that I might not be ready to talk with yet isn't making it better, but making me be more careful about what I talk about with you.

When a I was going through a very difficult time this year you seem to have disappeared when I needed you the most. I was surprised to hear about how I was abanoning everyone when all I did was stop inviting myself to things where I felt as though you didn't want me there. Now, it just might be me but when I know someone is going through a difficult time I try and be there for them but it seems with you it seems as though it is best to leave them on their own and make them feel more alone.

Alright, so remember when you told me that I don't have a personality and I just seem to mimick those in our group? Well, you might not realize this but this still bothers me to this day because I thought you knew me but it seems as though you don't know me at all. According to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of the American Psychiatric Association, personality traits are "enduring patterns of perceiving, relating to, and thinking about the environment and oneself that are exhibited in a wide range of social and personal contexts." Now, let's think about this word environment this would include friends so guess what friends make up your personality. Thus, the environment that I live in has an effect on my personality and might to somepeople look like I am "mimicking" them. Although, everyone that I have told that I don't have a personality of my own and only copy those, they have laughed their butts off at it because I am weird and an individual.

For now that is all I have for you.

Your Friend,

The Silent Typewriter

Number 3

Well, it seems as though I have gotten myself into yet another job. I work at a movie theater, a health organization, and now I am a web master for a web site this is all in addition to my summer class. I seem to keep finding time for all of these things it just seems as though I get less sleep and not as much money.

I get knocked down

There are somethings that happen to us that bring us down. A girlfriend/boyfriend breaks up with you, your told you are just not good enough, or something has happened to you that makes you believe your not good enough or deserve anything better. These things happens to all of us the things that make us different is how we react and handle those situations. I feel sad to say that some of us can't always make the best decisions from those experiences. I am not saying that some people are better than others its is just some of us need some direction and encouragement from others.

Something to think about

Take stock of your relationships. Think of only the closest, because with this idea, you'll have a really hard time the more people you have.
Now imagine yourself in front of a line of these people. You must choose one at a time from that line to be saved and after each choice another person dies.
Who do you choose?

I Like It Rough

There are somethings that just slide into place operate without much problems. Why would you ever want your life to operate like that?

The Frustration of Memory

Memory it can be a blessing and a curse at the same time. You can remember the wonderful time that you have spent with your friends having the time of your life but it can also switch into a curse that makes you recall the memories of pain, terror, and heartache. If memories bring the vastly two different parts out why would you want to remember anything? The when they are good memories are fantastic when they are bad its horrible. Sometimes I think if we could just get rid of the ones we don't want or bring pain we should be able to erase them. Obviously this isn't possible but I think the best thing to do in this situation would be to simply make more good memories than bad. What happens when it comes to memories of lost loves or people you really wish you would have a chance with? Would it be better to remember the parts when you would do anything under the sun for them or when you we killed when you were rejected?

Girls, Girls, Girls

Last night I had a very interesting conversation with my friend about girls which is always interesting since both of us are guys. So, we had to make it an official night talk and go to iHop til 1am. We were discussing some of the most disappointing stories that have happened to us or were told about and we had some interesting ones that could be made into a book. One of the topics was we were talking about girls that are like on top of a pillar and could never fall. There is a way that no matter what she would do and how disappointed I might be with what she does because I know she is smarter than that she could never do anything majorly wrong in my mind. She could do almost anything and that would never stop me from having her on this pillar. The hilarious part of the evening was we were trying to figure out what was going on with the different girls in our lives and it took both of us combined thinking about it for a few hours and we still could never figure them out.

Last week, I was watching Mean Girls with a friend and she was talking about how the girl is sitting behind the guy daydreaming. I said you know when I guy sees a hot girl that's basically what happens.