What Should I Do?

Dear Friend,

I realize I haven't written to you in awhile several things have been eating away at me. These things I have tried to bring to your attention before although they didn't seem to stick. My major pet peeve is people that don't feel as though they have zero self confidence/respect. The major reason this bothers me is because with all of my friends I have respect for you so when you act as though you don't respect yourself it's very difficult to keep respect for you. How can I respect you if you don't respect yourself? I realize I do blow somethings out of proportion and can get carried away with that but if you don't want that to happen you shouldn't tell me those things not that I don't care but because I do. I have told you before not to talk about some of those things with me but you continue to do it.

There are some other things that I would like to bring to your attention. I realize that you like to talk a lot but sometimes it can be overwhelming when I come to talk to you about something that is bothering me and you talk nonstop aout different things. Continuing, with that if I bring a problem of mine to your attention and you think I should discuss it with another person that would have more experience with that. It would be better if I was able to make the decision to discuss it with that individual on my own instead of you arranging it. I realize you are trying to help but forcing me to talk with a person that I might not be ready to talk with yet isn't making it better, but making me be more careful about what I talk about with you.

When a I was going through a very difficult time this year you seem to have disappeared when I needed you the most. I was surprised to hear about how I was abanoning everyone when all I did was stop inviting myself to things where I felt as though you didn't want me there. Now, it just might be me but when I know someone is going through a difficult time I try and be there for them but it seems with you it seems as though it is best to leave them on their own and make them feel more alone.

Alright, so remember when you told me that I don't have a personality and I just seem to mimick those in our group? Well, you might not realize this but this still bothers me to this day because I thought you knew me but it seems as though you don't know me at all. According to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of the American Psychiatric Association, personality traits are "enduring patterns of perceiving, relating to, and thinking about the environment and oneself that are exhibited in a wide range of social and personal contexts." Now, let's think about this word environment this would include friends so guess what friends make up your personality. Thus, the environment that I live in has an effect on my personality and might to somepeople look like I am "mimicking" them. Although, everyone that I have told that I don't have a personality of my own and only copy those, they have laughed their butts off at it because I am weird and an individual.

For now that is all I have for you.

Your Friend,

The Silent Typewriter