You Know Your A Geek When...

Disclaimer: I have some first hand experience in this area since I am a geek so I have the right to say this.
For those of you that are not geeks you most likely have never heard of a game called EVE Online. Well the basis of the game is you are a spaceship commander and you interact with real people in this made up, real time, universe of wonder. It is entertaining for hours just flying your little ship around and seeing what you can see. Well are enhancements to the game that you can purchase using the money in the game called Isk. One of these game enhancements is EVE dating it is a way for guys to "hook up" with those attractive women that play EVE. They have special editions like Euro dating and Russian dating so whatever you might be into they have it for you. Most of the people the customer talks to are known as Bots (a computer that talks back). A few times I have found pictures of those "hot girls playing EVE that want to chat" that look a lot like some FaceBook friend's profile pictures. So, it begs the question who doesn't play EVE?

Signs you are addicted to EVE
1)You would mine imaginary astroids than hang out with friends.
2)You say Isk instead of dollars
3)Your friends know you only as your username like mine being Itzli Tzitzimime
4)If you find yourself doing 2 of the 3 above

The Letter to You

Dear You,

Who do you think you are? Making me fall head over heals for you and for what? Just to be ultimately disappointed. I don't think I will be able to keep up this chase I will eventually have to let you go even though it will rip me apart. Just seeing you in a simple situation I don't think I would be able to handle it.

Are you even worth it anymore?

I know it can never go anywhere near what it was. I want to be your friend. I want to be around you. I don't want our differences to drive a wedge between us.

There's too much about you that I can't tolerate. I know you will never heed my warnings the people that you have allowed to effect you is making you into a person I don't recognize anymore. And you know you could do so much better. It really hurts me to see how you've changed since you've started hanging out with them. I really don't like the person you've become. The main thing that drives me up the wall about you is you sell yourself short and not yourself get to your full potential.

But I just can't do it any more. I hate to lose you, but that's what's going to happen if you continue down this destructive path under the delusion you know what you're doing and that you're doing it for noble reasons.

Don't be a lost cause. I cry for what was forgotten. Show me the real you again. Show me what it used to be like.

Sincerly,

Drake

Finding Your Personallity

This can be hard for some of those among us at least in the eyes of others around us. There are some personalities that might not stick out as much as others but they are still there. I was recently told by "friend" that I do not have a personality but purely copy those around me. Now, let's think about this is I just copy how do I ever survive when I am not around them? Do I just not have a personality? Who would I be? Now, anyone that has met and knows me knows one thing for sure I am NOT like everyone else. I am weird. Some say that the music you listen to can say a lot about you. In this aspect I am one of the weirdest of all with my music library ranging from- Disney soundtracks to Korn, Classical to Rap, and everything in between. Now if that does not say anything right there it shows I am not like everyone else and just like a certain type of music but everything to a point. My goal has been to always be myself and not follow those around me because if you do that then you are nothing and mean absolutely nothing to anyone, because they feel in love with this invisable person (Click Here). To be honest it really bothered me that this person said this knowing how much it would most likely piss me off which it did. So this makes my decision about next year a lot easier.

Venting Inc.

This is a fairly small organization that many don't know about yet. It is an organization that help people get through rough times that they might be going through. Everyone helps everyone is the general gist of the organization. It currently consists of 4 members so as you can see it is still unknown and the founders (Chelsea and Mark) currently make up 50% of the organization so it still has some potential to grow. The tricky part of getting this to grow it is getting the trust level between the people to the level to be able to tell the sort of things that would be stressing the people out. Now, granted this is just a bunch of friends that help each other out when they need the support of people that have gotten through their own obstacles.

Running Away From One's Problems

I had a interesting conversation at breakfast this morning and part of it was about running away from one's problems. I recently deactivated my Facebook account which some are amazed that I did such a thing and it was viewed from some people as running away from my problems. I would beg a differ the reason I did it was to get away from those I wish not to talk to. In a way I guess I have ran away from my problems instead of facing them straight on but it is truly down right mean when those assume things that they honestly have no right to get in to. There are some parts to wish I have not fully disclosed with them because they don't need or have earned enough trust to know. Everytime they get close they cease to amaze me and lose it.

The Invisable Person

"I don't want to go through the motions, I don't want to go one more day..." (The Motions by Matthew West). Have you ever felt as though you had to be someone else so people would like you? Sometimes it can be difficult to be yourself when everyone is pushing against you and wanting you to change into someone or something else. Now let me back up quick you need to change in order to adapt to a new situation although changing who you are and what you believe in is not worth it. I realize that it might be difficult to do especially when your around people that you like but there is no point of pretending you are someone your not. It just ends up fooling everyone including yourself.

I Do Believe

Over the past few weeks I have been thinking through some difficult things and because of that I have not talked as much which those of you that know me will sound as a complete surprise. As much as I have been trying for it not to be noticeable it had become known today. I have been wanting to get this internship as you could gather from some of my more recent posts and been praying about it at any spare moment asking for it and asking him to show that He was listening to what I was saying. Well I got my answer today while I was waiting for some of my friends to get the rest of their food at the food court area so I went ahead and got sat down at a table. While sitting there these two guys came up to the me and asked if they could sit down and chat I was thinking "alright so what are you trying to sell now?" much like the many other people do that go around the area. Well they were from CRU (Crusaders for Christ) group on campus and started asking me about my faith and things of that nature. They were very good about the way they went about it because it could be taken the wrong way if approached differently. Well it seems as though He did answer my prayer although it might not have been in they way I wanted it to be answered but it was answered never the less. One of the questions they asked was if I felt like I died for Jesus everyday. I was wondering what they were referring to because frankly I had no idea so he went on to explain to ask if I felt like I was living for Him each day with everything I did and to be honest I said no. It reminds me of the song "Can't Get Away" by Rush of Fools the song talks about no matter how far we run we will always run into Him. (Click Here To Listen).

Nervousness, Excitiment, and Stress

As a continuation of my last post I am applying for an internship for the summer. If I were to get this once in a lifetime opportunity it would truly change me for the rest of my life. This internship would be a great way to show people that for once in my life I am able to do something really amazing. If I wasn't able to get the job it would show that I am not really all that different from everyone else.