Dear God

Dear God,

I would like to say that keeping this show up for 4 years has been quite difficult but somehow I seem to pull it off. Everyday there is a new obstacle in my path but I seem to find a creative way around that. If you said "What's Wrong?" there would be way to many things to narrow it down to say. I have tried repeatedly to dig myself out of this hole because I don't really know another way out. I seem to have keep digging myself farther and farther in and now I have gotten to the point where I have realized that I am beyond the point where one man without a shovel can get out. There is this tool that I have seem to have left out of the hole that on a daily basis I dig. There was a point where I thought I saw the way out but it only turned into tunnel farther down. I have lost sense of direction in my effort to continue on my own. I would love to have the chance to just ask for help and actually get some other than more than just some other illusion that has seem to have been mistaken for help.

What would happen if I said that I had absolutely no clue as to what is right, what is Your path, or what You were even saying to me? This would come to no surprise to You of course because You know that I took that path long before I realized there was a path change and no idea as to what was going on. Where were the warning signs? I am sure there were some along the way that I just didn't seem to acknowledge or just underestimate their importance to me. I thought that they were for someone else, some other problem, not mine because there was nothing that was wrong. Little to my knowledge I have had these blinders on for way too long. I need Your help in taking these off what to do now? Where do I start? There really isn't a point that I can say with 100% confidence I was even pointing in the right direction. There have been some guide rails that were in my way that helped me from falling off the cliff. Some stop signs that help evaluate the situation but after that red turned into the emerald green I kept going and forgot about the past or what was in my way. What voice are these people talking about? They say that they know what's going and everything but I got no idea as to what is even going on. How can I get back on track better yet how do I get on the track? There have been so many voices that keep talking I have forgotten which one is Yours. Which Shepard do I follow? They all look the same all with the same voice and clothes. Which one is Yours?

There seems to have been a failure on my part on the whole communication part for awhile. Well I had all these things going on where I just didn't have time for You I had these other things that were more important.

So my final question, When You call how will I know? I seem to have been hitting ignore on the phone call for quite sometime now. Will I recognize the number or even the voice on the line?

Your Son,

Drake

P.S. Quick response preferred if possible.